Transitions suck. It’s hard to be stuck in limbo waiting for the right time for anything. To really want to move forward, but not feeling 100% ready to do so. So you sit and you wait and just go through the motions. What’s worse is feeling sorry for yourself and your insignificant issues, when some of the people you’re closest to are struggling- FOR REAL.

I get angry that I can’t do more for them, these people I know that are struggling for real. I wish I could cure cancer. I wish I could make fertility issues disappear with the snap of my fingers. I wish I could make the people of this world as a whole, more aware of their affect on others, as well as more compassionate, accepting and understanding.

I wish political issues were not so polarizing. That for once we could get past the bickering and they could see what was right and move forward. This isn’t a game, but it seems the people of “We are the people” are the ones that keep losing in this stalemate we call government.

I wish we were all a little less judgmental. Aren’t we all human? Wait, I think my husband is a Cylon sometimes. But really, we’re all just doing the best we can every day? Just like our children we don’t always make the best decisions (the ice cream I had at lunch), but hopefully we keep those bad choices to a minimum. So maybe you catch someone making a bad choice, don’t be so quick to write them off, only they know what they’re going through and but we’ve all been there before.

I wish we all complained a little less. I realize the irony in this as I type this blog of complaints- BACK OFF, you don’t want a piece of me today, cuz I’ll give it to you! Some of us spend so much time bitching, the rest of us wonder why you don’t just off yourself if life is that horrible to you. The negativity doesn’t do anyone any good, let alone you, so get past it. Venting is okay now and again, but the incessant bitching has to stop. Use that energy you spend bitching and put it into action. Otherwise, whine at your own risk, I may be tempted to utilize my frying pan upside your head.

That’s all for now.

Hugs to those who need em’!

Stay true to yourselves my friends.

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Wow.

What an amazing event!

12 miles. 25+ obstacles. Mud. Ice water. Fire. Electricity. Rain. Cold.

Pre-Event when we’re still clean. I would trust any of these women with my life!

 

7:00AM Saturday, April 14th… “Holy hell, what have I gotten myself (and four other people) into?” —-> My thoughts as we arrived at the event site.

We, a five woman team, plus a three woman crew, stepped out to the event site. It was cloudy and damp, a slight breeze, about 50 degrees or so. We checked in, got marked on foreheads and legs, attached our numbers to our shirts and then waited for our wave to start.

One of my biggest fears was not being able to scale the wall obstacles they had and guess what we had to do to gather to begin our wave? Scale a wall!! AAAHHHHHH!!!! I went first and my team helped me scale that damn wall and I went up and over! The MC did a great job warming up the crowd and off we went, running through orange smoke!

Nearly everything after that was a blur of trail running and mud and obstacles and cold… and it was fun and challenging and enlightening and affirming all at the same time.

You would not believe the mud. Seriously. Every kind of mud that you could imagine, every weight, every viscosity was represented: from watery mud to the thickest pull your shoes off as you try to walk mud. And just when we thought we were too muddy to move, we’d be forced into a ice cold water and you’d be wishing for the mud again!

We ran through fire, jumped off cliffs, shimmied through underground tunnels, were shocked with live wires, scaled walls, scaled mountains, slipped and fell while carrying logs and scaling mud mountains. You know what else we did? We helped each other through it and did it smiling nearly the entire time!

My team was amazing and I even amazed myself! I had no idea the awesomeness we were capable of!! The other participants around me were amazing too! Everyone helped everyone else and offered words of encouragement, cheered one another on, made each other laugh! I have not felt such a sense of camaraderie since I did the Avon Breast Cancer 3-Day walk with my dear friend Dawn. I know SHE knows what I’m talking about.

At one point near the end, we found our support crew (who were so AWESOME too!) and we wondered what time it was…we started at 9:00AM…it was nearly 2:00PM! We were out there for almost 5 hours and it didn’t feel like 5 hours because we just kept moving and conquering obstacle after obstacle and helping and cheering for others. Where else can you be wet and hungry and tired and bleeding and not feel the time go by?

At the finish with our earned orange Tough Mudder headbands!

 

At the end of the event we are all battered and bruised and bleeding, shivering with teeth chattering, exhausted and STARVING…but we are still smiling!

 

Two days later and this it what some of my body looks like:

Knee: (yes that shadowy tinge is bruise)

Arm:

 

There are other parts of me that look worse believe it or not, but I will heal. My girls look much the same, some of them might take more time and some medical intervention to heal completely, but we survived relatively unscathed with amazing memories and a belief in ourselves that never before existed. I know there are many of you out there that maybe don’t get how any of us could have possibly enjoyed this, but it is worth so much to push yourself some to know what you’re capable of, to trust in other people with your own well-being and come out on the other side in one piece knowing without a doubt that there isn’t anything you can’t get through. That with a solid plan, some training and some good pals, you can do WHATEVER your set your mind to.

Tough Mudder was truly was an experience of a lifetime.

HELLBENT TEAM- J, K, K, & S- I am so crazy proud of all of you! None of you hesitated for a moment when I asked you to take this journey with me over six months ago! You committed and trained and we EFFING DID IT!!! TOGETHER!!! BEST.TEAM.EVAH!

Shout out to our rocking support crew…KL, T and A…I can not say thank you enough for enduring the shitty weather for half the day while waiting and taking pictures and video and making sure we had everything we needed. YOU THREE ROCKED and make our whole Tough Mudder experience that much more embraceable knowing we didn’t have to worry about little things!! I will lovingly accompany any of you anywhere in the future that you might require support crew too!!

Tough Mudder Michigan June 2013 anyone? ;)

 

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6 days and counting…

April 8, 2012

Thanks to my friend Jill, we have some excellent recon photos for our Tough Mudder event that is happening this Saturday, April 14th! The Arctic Enema… Yes this is as fun as it sounds. A huge garbage bin of ice water you have to jump into. See the two posts at the top…yeah, there will be [...]

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Being mortal…

April 3, 2012

We are you know…mortal that is. Yeah as much as I think I’m superwoman most days, we’re all going to kick it at some point right? No I’m not in any kind of depression spiral, just seems to be a common theme surrounding me and my loved ones right now. When a common theme keeps [...]

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Let me tell ya bout a girl I know…

March 28, 2012

I know a lot of people…well, maybe I should say a lot of people know me. That’s what’s tough about being named Sunshine, almost everyone remembers you even if you have the worst memory ever! So of all these people I know, I have a fair few friends as well. Of all these friends, I [...]

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hardest race I ever ran…

March 11, 2012

Six years ago this weekend I ran my first ever 5k in Ann Arbor- Shamrocks & Shenanigans. I trained for three months to try to run all 3.1 miles and although I walked most of it, I finished proudly in about 46 minutes. I’ve run this race five times in the last six years (I [...]

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Yeah, I am pretty super…and you are too!

February 10, 2012

The other day I saw not one, but three kids wearing super hero capes at different parts of my day. First I thought to myself, “I wonder if that was the battle those moms chose not to fight today.” But then I thought, “What a boost that kid must feel going around all day feeling [...]

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It’s sad when…

February 1, 2012

…you realize how hard you worked your abs the day before when you’re barfing uncontrollably into the toilet. …your body aches twice as bad because you worked out the day before you came down your little man’s virus. …you ask your man to clean up the kitchen before he goes to bed because you feel [...]

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How do YOU define yourself?

January 30, 2012

Today J and I were debriefing after our indoor triathlon…yes the conversation we have after we finish a race where we talk about how it went…not the part where we got undressed. J said that in the recent past, she didn’t really think of herself as a runner except for on race day. That thought [...]

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Things I hear at the gym…

January 25, 2012

Yes, two posts in two days, can you keep up? So this morning at the gym J and I ran 4 miles…3 of which were ascending/descending sprints. It felt good. Actually not just good, but GOOOOOD. If you run, you know what I mean. Yeah you’re tired at the end and sweaty and I ended [...]

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